My Mom

It's taken me a lot longer than my sisters to write about this but I'm finally OK with putting it in writing. My Mom was diagnosed with Stage 4 Lung Cancer on December 23rd. We knew it was probably cancer but only a few weeks before that. I found out she was sick the weekend before Thanksgiving. She sounded terrible when I called but I had called many times before when she had sinus infections or her allergies were bothering her. She went on to say that she was having trouble with her sciatic nerve in her leg and was waiting for an MRI. The next time I talked to her she thought she had pneumonia. On Thanksgiving when I called home I was told the MRI had been done and there was a mass in her chest and a tumor in her leg. At that point we knew it was probably cancer but nothing was confirmed. The next time I talked to her the Dr. thought it might be Valley Fever. We were all hoping for that, but it was not to be. Nobody wants to hear that there Mother (or any other loved one) has cancer and that there is no cure. I think I have finally come to grips with it. Us siblings started a blog at http://normanatividad.blogspot.com/ or it's under My Mom to the right if your interested. I have to THANK Lehua (my sister) for keeping it up to date and doing all the post.

In her last post she had asked my Mom if she ever felt like crying. We have never seen her do this since this all happened. She said No. Lehua than asked her if she ever got mad or grouchy about it and she also said No. My Mom than said she has only got a little frustrated and that's it. A little frustrated? What a lesson she has taught me. I let my emotions take control way to often. I've been thinking about this and have decided to really start looking at the good in my life. Unfortunately I have grown into a glass half empty person. I'm not sure when this happened but it needs to change. So I'm starting a Thankful column. I'm going to start with the things in my life that I don't think are so great but that I am grateful for.